Feb 25 2010

I missed yesterday. Because someone we know, distracts me even when we're not together.

I learned something yesterday I wanted to share with everyone before I tell you all about my Thursday. Being female, is simply the default state of our sex chromosomes.

That is what my Biology teacher informed us.

How sexist is that?

Yes, it may be true, but still. Couldn't he have found other words to use, to make it not quite so demeaning? Oh well I guess.

Thursday.

I love these days the most. And today was actually really good. Institute was extremely good, and me, Tori, and April all learned something that we didn't know before. It was good. :] I love that class, and I love Bro. Maughan. I saw him today when I was coming home from tanning, and he is just great. I got a lot done today, and it was good. Classes went quickly, and then I went tanning with Tori, and went to the Fieldhouse for the first time in like forever. It was great. :] I didn't realize how much I actually missed going there, and how great it was to go every day during the first semester. I'm going to definitely work on getting there more often. I actually ran a lot, which is bizarre for me, since most of the time it is crazy painful on my knee. But it was good. :] And, I'm not as out of of shape as I thought I was, and I actually did pretty good. :]

I'm going to restart my goal of not drinking soda anymore though, even though I don't really drink it that much right now.

Remember Tesha? She visited us tonight! It was great to see her, and it made us all miss living together, and especially miss Maddison. I never realized before how big of an impact she had on my lifestyle when she was here, and she was a really good influence on making sure I was on top of everything I was supposed to be doing. She always rode me about working out, reading my scriptures, and being crazy curious about the Church. It was helpful. I am hoping that we get to see her really soon. :]

Going home tomorrow, and I'm very excited.

I love going home.

Oh my. I forgot to tell you. I got to go Country dancing last night! It was really fun. :] I haven't been in SOOO long, so I was kind of rusty. But it was still really fun. :] Once I got all my big projects out of the way, I still had time to go, so even though no one would go with me, I went. It was a little bit awkward to be there by myself, but I met up with a couple of people from my ward, so it turned out to be good. :] Hopefully this summer we will be able to go a lot again. Cuz that is something I definitely miss doing.

Rodabough's sold their house. They are moving to Lehi. Hmm. I don't really know what to say about this, or what to think exactly. Cameron stopped talking to me, and I haven't heard anything for about three months. Which is fine, I'm not upset. It's just interesting. We will see how everything goes, but I think it will be good for everyone for them to get out of the ward. I will miss seeing them when I go home however, and being able to talk to Brylee. Things change. That's just the way of life.

I did hear from Creeper Jake (or The Troll, whatever you know him by) and he is doing well in France. :] It's so bizarre, all these people out on their missions. Chad got his call yesterday, as well as Joey Hawes. Chad is going to Brazil, and Joey is going to Raleigh, North Carolina. I also found out that Brennan Stringham is going to Nashville Tennessee. It's going to be weird, like every boy from my high school out in a different part of the country. It will be good for them though. :] Troy can only say good things, and I know he would do it all over again in a second, so I can be nothing but excited. :] It's just weird, because I cheered for all these boys at every soccer, or football game. They were my boys. :] Now they're all out doing amazing things in the world, and it's very exciting to watch.

Well, you probably won't hear much from me this weekend. Ha. But I'll do what I can.

Feb 23 2010

I decided today, that if someone from another planet were to come here, especially a college campus, I'm sure that they would think ipod headphones were a necessity for life. Because I no joke, passed like maybe five people ALL DAY that didn't have them in. I had mine in too of course, but it was amazing to me. Even people having conversations with one another had them in. It's funny to me, because just like ten years ago, that wasn't even really possible, because all we had were our huge walkmans. No one carried those around as religiously as ipods or zunes are today. It's amazing how technology is advancing out of control lately.

We got something amazing today for our apartment. I was going to put a picture of it on here, but it's too late, and I'm trying to hurry. But we finally have a......TOASTER. Ever since Tesha moved out last semester, E403 has been toasterless, and that is quite a difficult life to lead. So we were all pretty excited when we came home and found one sitting on our cupboard. (Jessica had bought one.) I'm definitely eating toast tomorrow. :] I tried to get a lot done today, but kind of failed. Okay, no I failed. But oh well. Tomorrow will be my day, and I will get lots done before I go home this weekend. :]

I think I decided that I won't be staying here Friday night, so we will see how Tori takes that....whatever. :]

I want to go Country dancing tomorrow night too, so that's another reason I'm going to get some serious work done so that I can do that. I miss it, and the other night at FHE (oh I went to FHE p.s.) Eric was teaching this other kid a couple of lifts and dips using me as his model. It was fun, and made me miss it. :] Apparently, a lot of people from our ward go on Wednesday nights too, so we will have some people to hang out with this time. :]
No Candlestick this time around however, I still haven't recovered from the idiot that almost killed me.

Feb 22 2010

Back to normal now, mostly. Everything is going to be fine....

Mondays are pretty rough as weekdays go, I just have a real hard time going from the joys of a weekend, back to school. I'm confident I'm not the only person who feels this way, I just am expressing them. I got an average amount done today however. I spent around an hour and a half planning out my entire future, and that was a headache and a half. But at least it is over. Kind of.... we will see. Haha that phrase. I can't really seem to stop using it lately. Troy and I just discussed this on the phone, we talked forever! He officially holds any telephone using record I have. But it was really good. I like just talking to him, about anything. It's really funny to talk about things we have done together, but to see how the other person was feeling or thinking. He was reading the older blog posts as we were chatting, and I was laughing so hard. I can't believe some of the things I said. Ha. I had fun though. I love talking to him. He makes me laugh.

Which is a definite must.

I haven't really done anything inspiring as of lately, but I will do my best to work on that. I am still doing what I can to figure out who I am in this world, and what I want to do with my life. It's getting difficult, because I am being thrown in eight million different directions. But after nights like tonight, where I can just talk and laugh and remember, I know it's going to all work out, someway somehow.

I need to not forget to call one of my parents tomorrow. Facebook has become our only communication as of lately. :/ That just won't do.

It's like one in the morning, and I'm sitting on my couch writing in this. Sierra comes out of her room, having just woken up, and sees me sitting on the couch. She looks up, really confused, and asked who I was and what I was doing.

"I'm Whitney Page, and I'm blogging."

Feb 21 2010 (again)

I feel bad not sharing about all the really good things I got to do this weekend as well. :]

Troy came up, obviously. And we had a lot of fun. We did a lot of what we are best at, just hanging out. But I had a really good time. Friday we went to the USU Hockey game, and it was intense. There were a couple of big fights, and one guy from the Denver team was knocked out for like twenty minutes. It stalled the game for a really long time, and they took him to the hospital. He was okay, but it was madness. :] Saturday I spent all day at the Workshop, which I already talked about. After that, I got together with Logan and Troy and Tori. We went to get something to eat, and we left the entire choice up to Logan. :] He choose this random little burger joint, called "Logan's Burgers" or something, and that is where we ate. It was kind of like a knock-off Crown Burger with mint green walls, and fake plants from the nineteen-seventies. But it was actually pretty good. It was fun. :] Logan just makes everything twice as fun. After that we stopped by Logan's, and we played Clue, Office style. It was basically the same as the real game, only characters from the Office and there were a couple of extra things. It was actually really fun. :] We then hurried to the Basketball game and watched the Aggies beat Wichita State. It was a Bracket-buster game, and ESPN came again. It was really fun. I love the Aggie games. They are just great. After the game we went back to my house for a little bit, and made a quick run to Wal-Mart. It was fun. :] Sunday went pretty quickly. I woke up and went to church (Troy slept in, and was late. :] ) And it was family day so April's family came up. It was really fun to meet them. :] I liked them a lot. It was fun. I lost Troy after church. :/ Haha we split up for RS/Priesthood and after it was finished, we went to go home, and we found everyone from April's family, but no Troy. So we assumed he went back to my apartment, so we left. However, we got to the apartment and he was not there. So me and Sierra hurried back to the Institute, and found him. :] My bad. We then had the "Linger Longer" before the Joseph Smith Fireside, so we went there and ate and chatted. The fireside with Elder Hales was really good. He went through the life trials of Joseph Smith, and asked us to apply them to our lives. After the fireside, Troy went home, and I went back to the apartment. Tori was there doing math, and acted normal.

I just don't know.

Feb 21 2010

This part of my life, I like to call frustration. (WARNING. This blog is basically me venting.)

I'm frustrated. Remember how lately I feel like I have no clue what I'm doing up here, and I feel kinda like a big fat waste of time and money and space? That feeling is not going away, in fact, it's getting increasingly stronger. How am I supposed to focus on school when I can't even reason for me to stay up here? I was doing alright, me and Troy were seeing each other on the weekends, I was talking to Parker, and I was spending every waking moment with Troy. Recently however, one of these things has changed.

A couple weekends ago, I went home with Tori. On the way back, she was talking about her break up with Hadley, and drama at home, and things like this. I had said a few things about Troy, but really, I was listening to her because I was concerned, because I had noticed a change in her mood recently. She flat out told me that she didn't like that I had a boyfriend and she didn't. What do you say to something like that? It hurt. I was not very happy about it, but I didn't say anything for fear that it would make this weird ornery mood of hers stick around, and I didn't want it directed at me. Especially since we had an hour long drive left.

So that was about a week ago. The entire week leading up to this weekend, Tori came to my house like.......twice. It has been awkward. She doesn't want to talk to me anymore, and I have felt like she is constantly mad at me, and I'm always on edge for fear I'm making it worse just by existing. So Troy was coming up this weekend. She knew this, and was just going to have to deal with it. However, she wanted me to ditch Troy, or bring him awkwardly along, to a girls night that her roommates were having on Friday. I don't even really know her roommates, let alone comfortable with them to bring my boyfriend to their girls night. Not happening. So, she was mad at me all day Friday for not doing this. I was just nice to her, and didn't do anything. If she wanted to be mad over something that stupid, then fine.

Saturday night rolls around. She was going to invite some guy to go to the basketball game with me, and Troy and Logan. The guy bailed or didn't get back to her in time, so she text me and told me it was just going to be her. So the four of us go to dinner, and go to the game. From the start, she was awkwardly quiet, and wouldn't really respond to anything I had to say. When someone doesn't talk back to the things you say to them for an hour, you eventually stop talking to them. It's natural. We went to Logan's to play Clue, and it got even worse. She was pissed at me by halfway through the game, and I don't even know why. I was playing. I wasn't being mean to her, and I was trying to get her to have a good time. Whatever. Go to the game, and she doesn't even speak to me.

She left after half time.

I discovered her reasoning behind why she was mad. Not entirely the boyfriend like I thought. Oh no. She feels inferior to me. Do you know how mad that makes me? Do you know how frustrating it is, when people don't like you because you're too smart? Because you get good grades, and apply yourself to school? I didn't ask to be good with numbers. I didn't ask to like weird things, like punctuation books. I didn't ask the teacher to give me ONE POINT HIGHER on my paper than her. What makes me the most mad, is that she is doing better in our Human Development class than I am. And she's inferior to me. It's not the me part that makes me mad. It's the fact that she can't see just how great of a person she truly is, and the impact that she had on me. She doesn't have a boyfriend right now, SO WHAT. She is depending on that form of attention to create who she is. She believes that when she has a boy, she is better. I am outraged.

And I'm extremely hurt. It hurts me to realize that she thinks that about me. I thought she was my best friend, and I trusted her. It hurts to know that she doesn't like me. She thinks I'm too smart, and too good. That puts me in the worst position. And it kills.

Now our friendship is cold and fake. I still love her greatly, and care about her. But no longer will she be the one I confide in when I just feel like crying. I'm not going to share any school information with her, because I'm terrified it will hurt her feelings. I'm afraid to help her with math, because she will think I'm calling her stupid. She made me afraid to be me, and that's not what a best friend should do.

Over reacting. That is what you're all thinking I'm doing. But you have no idea what it is like.

Now, my original feelings towards not wanting to be here, are even stronger. Because the only people I know care, are at home. My family. Parker. Troy. Jennifer and Melissa.

I'm totally alone.

I know that I have the church. That Heavenly Father is there for me always. And that I never really am alone. I know that there are friends in the ward, and my roommates would do anything. But it's not the same.

And it's extremely difficult.

I have been trying so hard to be happy with life. But I let myself cry tonight.

And I cried hard.

Feb 20 2010

I'm aware that Saturday is not over yet, but I never get to write in this when Troy is around, and I want you all to know how the Winter Workshop went. :] So it started extremely early, and that I wasn't a fan of. But it was needed, because we still had so much to do before people showed up. However, people still showed up. :] I can't stand when people show up for something THAT early. Like really, who shows up for registration that starts at nine, at eight? Jerks that's who. So we kind of got thrown off track because of those people, but it went well. I worked the front registration table. (Not alone of course, that would have been terrible.) Then Curt (a teacher here at USU) gave a really good presentation, even though we only got to listen to half of it. We decided before the conference began, that it would be a "voices off" event. Which is self explanatory, meaning, ASL is the preferred method of communication. I have never signed so much in my entire life. :] But I'll tell you what, I'm pretty dang good. :] Because I am an Officer, I didn't really go to any of the workshops, and we all just kinda wandered around talking and joining the groups when we wanted. But it was really fun to mingle with all these people, and see them all SIGNING. It was splendid. I even go to voice interpret a few times, and that was an experience. I actually spent the whole day interpreting, because Tracy took her Cochlear Implant out, so when we did break the rules and use our voices, I still had to sign so she wasn't confused. And I did a pretty good job. :] She wasn't confused or anything, so I'm going to take that as a good sign. Jan (the DeafEd Advisor) gave us all Angie's gift cards for our efforts, and that was pretty cool. I think I'm in the right area. Except, I can't stop using my hands to talk now. I'm too used to it. :]

I can't wait for the Silent Weekend, that is going to be FUN. An entire weekend dedicated ONLY to sign. Absolutely NO VOICES ALLOWED. Haha it's crazy intimidating, but my skills are going to be outrageous by the time that is over. It's funny, because ASL is a totally interactive language. You learn the most by interacting, and just experiencing signing. After days like today, I feel like I can go pass the test right now, and get my license. (Which I can't, clearly. That is just not logical.) But still, I feel pretty cool. And days like today show me just exactly where my skill level is at, and it surprises me. Which gives me hope for the future, and being able to complete everything I want to. :] Because in order to do all that, I have to be a legit signer, or I'm going no where.

P.S. I was informed of a new job today. You have to be like an AMAZING (wow, obsession with Capslock much?) signer. But you would work at VPR, which is a telephone company for the VP. What this means is, the Deaf/Hearing person calls you, and you interpret the phone call for the people. Guess how much they pay? SEVEN DOLLARS EVERY MINUTE. For every five minute phone call you take in a day, you make thirty-five dollars right there.

I need to get myself at this level. :/

My dream however, is to be able to pass the test in Texas, so that i can be a level 5 interpreter, and do big jobs. Like for the UN and stuff. Be someone super important. That would be really really cool. :]

Feb 18 2010

Like I hoped for, Thursday went well. :]

I forgot to mention, another favorite thing about Thursdays. It's uniform day!! And that is great, even though me and Tori still have not yet found our uniforms to wear on this beloved day. Some day, we will. We also decided that it should be mandatory for Firemen, Policemen, and other type of uniformed-careermen should wear their uniforms around campus as well. We can only wish.

I did something great today! I rode my very first Aggie Shuttle. :] It was an experience, let me tell you. I didn't have anything to do after Institute (which was amazing p.s.) so I told Tori I would go to her house with her before our class together at one thirty. This was an adventure. So, she decided which stop we were going to wait at, and we walked there. It was cold outside, no surprise, and so we waited inside this building with other shuttle-goers. We chatted while we waited, and then finally the big blue shuttle pulled itself to the concrete curb. (I felt the need to specify that our curbs here are concrete. Not cement. Cement is indeed an ingredient in concrete. Oh man. I'm a nerd.) We walked up to the shuttle with everyone else, and climbed on. I was fascinated. We sat next to each other, and it was just like something right out of a movie. :] There were all sorts of people on the shuttle, one guy, get this, was even reading a newspaper. It was splendid. We rode it all the way to her stop, and then got off. But that is not where our shuttle adventure ends. We ate lunch at her house, got her stuff together, and then ventured to another bus stop. This shuttle was much more crowded than the first, and I actually sat between strangers. It was a big step. Tori was kind of far away, and I kept had to making eye contact with her every time the bus stopped so I wasn't left on there completely clueless and helpless. It was so crowded on this one that people were actually standing up, holding on the the rails that run above the seats. It was great. There was a very peculiar girl standing in the stairwell next to my seat, she had on a very neon yellow beanie, and a very random outfit. She was carrying an American Eagle bag, and I'm not sure why she stood out to me, she just did. We actually had to transfer shuttles on the way to class, and that was a big step. All in all, it was quite the adventure, and I'm sure I will have to do it again sometime.

Our other adventure of the evening was a little outing we were invited on. :] One of Tori's friends from her math class, and our Institute class invited her to go bowling with some of his friends. She accepted, and then asked if it was alright if I tagged along, cuz she didn't really want to go alone. It turned out, to be a little bit awkward. It was kind of set up as one big triple date. Which doesn't really work for me. However, it went well, and wasn't really like that at all, and we all were just hanging out. The best part of the entire evening....are you ready for this? (And I'm excited to be able to do this, cuz since I bowl with Troy most of the time now, this is RARE. :] ) I won. :] I beat everyone. It was splendid. After bowling we ate some ice cream and played MarioKart, then we came home. It was fun.

I'm glad it's the weekend. :]

Feb 17 2010

I am filled up with the joy of Aggie Spirit on this lovely Wednesday evening. :]

We just returned home from a really great game against LATech and it was intense! There is something so thrilling about an entire Spectrum full of random strangers, being so united. I know that sounds so strange, but it really is. Like regardless of everything outside, everyone is your friend in an Aggie T-shirt. We won, of course, and it was an ESPN game, which is always really cool. They will be here again on Saturday, and I think we're going to try going to that one as well. Things like this, remind me of why I love college. :]

Today, was the productive day I said it was going to be. :] I got a lot of things done, and feel very pleased. I'm excited for tomorrow, because Thursdays are my favorite non-weekend-affiliated day of the week. It is also Survivor night, and the final DESA meeting before the workshop, and Thursdays I get to sleep in. :]

So while being a productive day, I have also come to the realization that today was a baseball themed day. "You know what we get to do today, Brooks? We get to play baseball." (Tell me what movie I'm watching. :] ) This is strange, because I'm not exactly a fan of baseball (yet. :] ) But that is just fine, because I love it when my days have a running theme, even if it is a little bit random.

My goings on of today has worn me out.

Feb 16 2010

Tuesday that was really a Monday. Recipe for a big fat failure day.

Actually, today wasn't all bad. I just feel like I didn't get very much done, but I hit a couple of walls so I could only half-do things, and that just makes me feel unaccomplished. Tomorrow though, I'll get a whole bunch done, and then it will be better. :] And it's Wednesday, which means we're halfway to the weekend! I love weekends. They are just a gift.

Today, really nothing great happened. My first class was cancelled, but I still woke up at eight, so I watched Ferris Bueller. It was great. Biology was boring. ASL was slow. I finished homework, and watched the Olympics between classes. We watched Curling today, USA vs. Japan, and it was actually really cool! We lost in the tenth end, by like a hair, and that was really lame, but it was cool to watch. I will definitely have to keep up with that. We finished off our Olympic dosage with the Men's Short Program. It was very cool. Some of their outfits were really cool. :] I was impressed. Tori hasn't been around lately. I don't really know what is going on there...I don't think she does either. I'm trying my best to just be her best friend. :] Parker had a rough day too. She got stuck in the middle of some leftover high school drama, and I felt bad I wasn't there to take her out and do some serious hate-driving. Haha. But I'm working on it, and I think I officially decided to come back for the summer. It is just so much more logical.

Tomorrow is my day.

Feb 15 2010

Sorry it has taken forever. I had a really amazing weekend. I love coming home. Let me update you about Smart Cookie. Out of control. We sold so many cookies! I folded so many boxes! It was madness. I was really glad that I got to do it though, because I love days like that. :] Even though they totally wear me out. After I got off of work me and Troy went and saw Valentine's Day, and I really liked it. It was funny. Anne Hathaway's character was kinda sketchy....but I liked the rest of the movie. :] That was my Saturday. Oh wait, I have a funny story. I freaked my parents out when I came home Saturday night. They had gotten home like five minutes before I did, and so I went into their room to chat for a minute. They were saying I was acting all weird, and answering their questions in a funny way, even though I was not aware of this. Sidenote: I had my CTR ring on my left hand, cuz that is the only finger that it fits on. So my mom notices this ring, and asks what it is. I was a little bit confused, then remembered, and went with it. I played it off and was just like it's just a ring. That got both of my parents attention. Immediately. My dad took his attention off the TV, and looked at me and then they both asked the question again. I just started laughing and explained that it was indeed my CTR ring, but it was funny. :]
Sunday we went to my cousin's homecoming, and Parker came with us. It was good to see him, even if he is a GIANT now. :] It's cool. I can't believe it has been two years already! So much has changed, and everything is so different. It went so fast though. I think that is a sign of age, because time never used to go this fast. Funny story about the homecoming, also involving my mother. So I see this kid that I know for sure is in my Creative Arts class. I let my family know this fact, and am kind of hung up on the part where I definitely knew him. His family sat in the row of chairs in front of us during Sacrament. After the meeting, as we were filing out, me and Parker picking up the rear of our family train. I see my mom begin talking to this kid. This is what she said, "Do you go to Utah State? Because I think you're in a class with my daughter back there, she is just too embarassed to say anything to you. But she knows you." The poor kid. It was so awkward. Haha we were all laughing of course, and then I say something to him to make him feel less weird, but I really don't think it helped. I hope I don't see him again.
I'm now back up in Logan, where it is freezing and there is still like tons of snow on the ground. I'm really missing Summer, which is weird for me, because I'm usually a Winter girl. Oh well I guess. I think I have figured out what I'm going to do, and it involves moving back home. I just have been enjoying my time at home a lot, and I don't want to spend an entire Summer wishing I were there with my family and what not. I think that it will be for the best. :] This week is looking to be a pretty busy one, and I'm kinda glad about that. I need something to keep my mind busy. I'm back to my second life, the one where I try to not fail out of college.

Feb 11 2010

SURVIVOR NIGHT.
That is what this part of my life is called.
And oh man, it's great. :] I am soo excited for this season, number 20 babbyy, it's going to be so intense! Some of my very favorite people have returned to battle it out in the islands of the pacific. I just love it. I am so enthralled by the entire concept of the show, and watching these crazayyy people strategize their way through this game. It is fascinating. We all picked our winners, and I choose my favorite black gravedigger from the south, James, and then for the villians team, I of course choose good ol' Boston Rob. We have to stick to the originals. However, I believe Evil Russell is going to give Rob a run for his mischievious-evil-mindgame money.
Oh, I'm such a freak. But I just can't help it. I love it so much!
We kicked our workout routine up to level two tonight, and it kicked back. That was tough stuff!Jillian is definitely not kind, but at least she does the work out with us. I feel good though, so that is all that matters. Hopefully, I'm not too sore tomorrow.
Tomorrow.
I'm going home! :] I'm very excited. However, it's going to be quite the adventure, because it's also Smart Cookie D-Day. For those of you who don't know, there is just something about our sugar cookies shaped like hearts that makes people crazy. Fire in their eyes, mouths salivating, nails bared, and teeth gnashing.
I'm so excited. :]
I'm hoping that I will be able to adequetly write the blog about my adventures, but you know that certain someone who alwasy distracts me from the blog.
I'll do my best however.
My Human Development professor, Dr. Austin, is almost like a white Oprah. She spent last week in Africa, working on her various projects helping to improve the education and development of children in the foreign country. It was fascinating to me, that a woman with so much here, was willing to give up so much over there, for absolutely nothing in return. I want so badly to be involved with something like that in the future, I just need to find a way. :] Maybe, that's my mission. We'll only see I guess. I believe that deep down I'll be able to eventually find the power to do it. I'm starting small now, but my involvement with the Deaf world is driven by a desire to help them. I don't pity them, that's not my view. I don't want them to hear, I don't want them to learn English, I don't want them to be like everyone else. I want the world to adjust to them, for once in their lives. It makes me so sad seeing these people who struggle through their lives, just to be able to read a book. They are shut out of language early on by 'Doctors' and 'Specialists' that are afraid of the difference. I think that is why I want to be a teacher, to give the students that will eventually be mine the ability to distinguish the differences between everyone, and view them as positive. I never want my students to feel like they can't achieve the world, just as the hearing kids in the school down the street are told they can. There is no limits placed on success, there are no boundaries to the things that people do. Why are we boxing people in, instead of stepping back and watching what they can become?

Feb 10 2010

I have a funny story that I thought I would share with everyone. :] I hope you all think it was as funny as I did, and if not then that's just too bad.
Today in ASL we discussed how big of a problem it can be, when you slightly change the shape of your hands, palm orientation or movement. I know these are boring minor details to this story, but they are necessary. Anyway, so she told us the following story:
I had a friend, who had to intrepret for a church meeting, which happened to be a missionary homecoming. He had just returned from Poland, and was giving his talk. The man, couldn't remember the sign for Poland to save his life. (The actual sign is taking your thumb and grazing the tip of your nose multiple times) He didn't know this however, so he made his own up. (His sign was taking the handshape for the letter p, and doing the nose grazing action) He went through the entire talk using this sign, saying things like "Oh I just loved the people in 'Poland,' I cannot wait to return to 'Poland,' everything in 'Poland' is so nice...." on and on with things like this, interchanging his made up sign for Poland. All of the Deaf people in the ward were acting very uncomfortable, and he didn't realize this until the end of the meeting. When it was all finished, a very very old man came up to the man, and informed him of the correct sign for Poland. The man was extremely embarassed, and sorry, and apologized for confusing everyone. The old man didn't leave however, and asked him if he knew what he had been signing the entire time. The man intrepreting curiously answered no. He was then informed of the meaning of the sign.
Penis.
He had been using penis instead of Poland throughout the entire meeting, making the Deaf people very uncomfortable, and the missionary seem very strange.
I laughed very hard when I heard this story. :]
We also had a fire drill today in our building, because the painter (they are re-painting every hall in the building...why? We don't know. The place is brand new....) accidentally hit the thing. It was bad, because none of the R.As were informed, so we stood in the cold for like twenty minutes, trying to figure out what the heck was going on.
I did accomplish a TON today however, and am glad. Now this weekend, I don't have to even think about school. :] I got two huge projects done like a month in advance, I'm so studious. :]

Feb 9 2010

Nothing exciting happened today. I have one little story to share, and then I'm off to bed.
Tori left my house around six thirty to go eat dinner, then she was going to return, and we were going to work on homework and do all that great stuff. Eight thirty rolls around, and finally Tori and April show up. (Sometime between when we got home from dinner, and when they showed up, April recieves a sketchy phone call and leaves.) It was strange that they returned together. Anyhow, I start my homework again, and we are working for quite some time. Then Tori gets a sketchier phone call from her dad, takes it in my bedroom and comes back laughing really hard at something, but doesn't explain herself. I'm starting to get slightly nervous about what is going on here.
We finally finish homework, and I ask them if they wanted to go tanning now. She looks at me really weird. And then looks at April, and says "You can't hate me." I immediately get very nervous, especially because of the previous goings on of the night. Her and April kinda continue to not tell me, and give me weird hints, and then finally it comes out.
Tori pulled the door handle off my drivers side, on the outside. (Not on purpose of course, it was entirely an accident, and it would have happened to me.)
So now, my car has no outside handle. And that's a problem.

Feb 8 2010

I have a big test in Human Development tomorrow. I have been doing homework all night pretty much, and am just now getting started on studying. Not good.
Events of the day that I deemed blogworthy:
April lied to me. I was on the phone with Troy, and we were discussing our names, and April was yelling out his name with his middle name in all sorts of variations, so Troy asked for her middle name. She told me (seriously mind you) that her middle name is May. Me, being of the intelligent type, realized that her name was then April-May. Just like the month order. So I point this out to her. And she freaks out, and is all super sarcastic and hilarious, has me totally laughing, and then these words come out of her mouth, "Yeah, my parents really WERE going to name me that." As in, that clearly wasn't her real name. I was livid.
She is so distracting. But she makes me laugh so hard, regardless of the day.
I'm very lucky for the great, random people in my life. :]
I'm looking forward to this weekend, and getting this week over with. Tomorrow is my last observation day, and my Human Development test, and then I just have an ASL test to get out of the way.
Tuesdays are my long days, and I'm so not ready.
I found out something really funny today, and I feel the need to write it in the blog. So, sorry Troy. :] Remember way back when, when Troy asked to read this blog? And I was super nervous about it, and wasn't sure, and acted like it was this huge deal, even though it really wasn't, and I was being paranoid. Anyway, I found out today, that he had been reading it before he asked. :] Haha apparently he discovered the blog LONG before he asked, and had been reading all about me and my crazy ways. :] Haha he felt really bad, but I think it's really funny. :] He cared enough to look me up, and then stalk my blog in secret. Haha I love it.
Well, that is about it for tonight.
Oh, except for this. April has this new obsession with the electrical box thing in the apartment. She flipped my lights off last night (locking me in there, because I couldn't find the handle) and now, she has turned off Sierra's room lights (Sierra is not yet home) and on top of that, the hall light where the box is, so that seeing the switches is going to be impossible. :]

Feb 7 2010

This weekend went actually really good. We had a few bumps in the road, but overall, it went really good, and I'm sad it's over now. I feel like this weekend was good at getting lots of time in with lots of different people, which has been a definite lack in my weekends at home before, not that I minded. (and not that I didn't miss the people I didn't see. I'm talking myself in circles....) Anyhow, it was really good for all of that. :] I dyed my hair again, so now I'm super blonde. :] Okay, so not super, but I'm not quite used to it yet, so it freaks me out a little.
I spent like an entire day with Melissa and Parker, and then Jennifer joined us. It was really good. :] I love those girls, they are just so them, there is no way I can describe them.
We then went and saw Dear John. I loved it, I did. However,
it made me cry. A lot.
It was crazy depressing, because they were like separated and had limited time together, and she was going off to school, blah blah relate to my life, so made me sad. But I loved the movie. I made a fool out of myself for crying so much, but I had good intentions, so I should get a little slack for that right? Right.
Today was the Superbowl, and the Saints won. Of course. :] It was great because me and Troy were cheering for opposite teams, so I won something. :] He may beat me in bowling, but at least all my football teams win. ;]
It was really fun though, we went over to Carol's house, and hung out with the family. I believe they like Troy, and he said he had a good time, so I think it overall went pretty well. Now I'm back in Logan, ornery cuz I'm by myself, and two hours away.
But, 5 more days.

Feb 4 2010

These are three things I feel need to be shared right now.
1-JC Chavez is simply a pretty face, not a judge, on ABDC5.
2-I love the nerdy jumproping groupt that thinks they are "gangster" and going to make it on this show. (Just kidding. I just watched them dance, and it was LEGIT.)
3-I will never be able to know the truth about this special Dove deodorant that is apparently lessening your need to shave. That is legitimately sad to me. I'm slightly distraught. Stupid Dove.
Now that that is out of the way, I don't really have a lot to say tonight. I'm pretty tired, and just want tomorrow to come.
Today however, I did see quite a peculiar thing.
As I was making my way to the Institute from the observation today, and outside of this certain Elementary building there is this little ledge by this set of stairs. As I'm walking, I notice a kinda oddly dressed larger man sitting on this ledge, with a pile of snow in front of him. I then noticed an empty Starbucks cup about five feet from the ledge in the middle of the sidewalk. Me, being who I am, tried analyzing the situation and suceeded. :] There were a couple of snowball looking clumps surrounding the cup, and I figured it out. He was sitting on this ledge, with a pile of snow, making snowballs, and trying to successfully sink them into the cup. It was the greatest boredom killer I have witnessed yet. :]
I was in charge of the DESA activity tonight, and it actually went really well. It was really easy to plan, just a game night, but I was kinda nervous. But it went well, and everyone thought so. :] So that was good to know. At least next year, if I have to be in charge of something, I know I'll be able to do it. Me and Chrisi got everything we needed for the Winter Workshop too, so we're on track, and in business. :] I was TERRIFIED we weren't going to get it all together, and it was going to be my fault, but that's not the case, so rejoice. :]
MTV has gone so downhill.
Tomorrow I have a Biology test, and Creative Arts, and that is it. :] Then I'm heading home! Woot. I'm actually not that nervous for the Bio test, and I'm not sure if that is a bad thing, or a good thing. We will see I guess. :/
Totally wearing sweats tomorrow.
I've had to "dress up" everyday this week.
I believe, I deserve it.
Oh my. Sudden Death Showdown on ABDC. This is intense.
Just like camping. :] (I hope you get that. It's April's favorite joke.)

Feb 3 2010

Today was extremely long for a Wednesday.

Positive: I got everything I needed to get done, done. So that is good. Even if it isn't the greatest work I have ever done, and I might struggle with my Biology test cuz I didn't get any studying in, and I will probably look like an idiot tomorrow night at DESA when I wing the activity I'm in charge of,
at least I finished what was necessary. :]

Again, had a little bit of a rough patch today, but it wasn't too bad, and I was very lucky for the people I have to help me with that.

(This is the part of my life where I get to brag.)

Troy, is really great. I'm super lucky. He really is a blessing. I'm very grateful for him. He kind of got thrown into the middle of all my madness, and doesn't even mind. That is what I admire and appreciate the very most. Again, I'm extremely lucky. :]

I'm glad that I'm going home this weekend, it is very much needed. Both to see friends/Troy and to be able to see my family.

I got the print out of my Patriarchal Blessing today in the mail, and re-read it. I didn't notice some things the first time, and I'm glad I have it now. :]

The very most best part about this blog, is the story of the day. Today, in our Creative Arts class all we did was make oragami boxes. :] Yes, I'm in college. :] The best part was, I got to take my box to the observation, and some kid was like oh that's cool, and I got to reply. "Oh yeah. This is what you do in college." He was amazed. :]

(I posted pictures of my box, because I was so proud. Even though it nowhere near compares to the actual thing. )

Feb 2 2010

Unproductive day.
Again.
I'm failing this week. My mind is somewhere else. Far far away, on other things. How am I supposed to get stuff done? It sucks.
I know, I'm a complainer. But I think I'm allowed to struggle every so often. Tomorrow, will be my day. I'll get lots done. You just wait.
Finishing the night off with Teen Mom.
I love college.

Feb 1 2010

Congrats on the first post of February. I love it when I get to start a new month, it's just so great.
I got to apply the punctuation book today, real life example. I was sitting in my observation, and the student teacher goes up to write something on the board for all the students to read. She was trying to write this sentence: "When you're finished, put your papers in the yellow basket." This sentence was clearly a tough one, because both versions of (your/you're) are in the sentence. She got the when up, and the you. Upon arrival at the r, however, she struggled. She wasn't sure whether or not she was supposed to put the lovely apostrophe, or continue with an e. Or even put the e at all. I watched this all play out for about thirty seconds. Imagine me, sitting in the back of the room, in agony, wanting to jump out of my chair and tell her exactly what she needed. She moved on, leaving the r. I almost couldn't take it. Halfway through the word "finished" she erased what she had, and that darn r. She then wrote "you are."
That book, has brought out everything I have buried deep within myself. That little thing called love. Love for punctuation and the correct use of it. :]
I'm so screwed now. Because, with the power this little book has invested in me, I'm okayy with embracing the stickler in me, and calling people out.
That also means, all of you are in trouble. :] (I suggest, reading the book. :] )
That was about the most exciting thing that happened to me today. The observation stuff went well, even if it is slightly awkward. I'm enjoying it.
Tori and Hadley broke up today. It was hard on her, but I think it will be for the better. :] They are officially on "a break" but we all know how those play out. She will be okayy, she feels good about it. Eventually he will as well.
My jaw, is having some issues. Troy internet diagnosed me today over facebook, and we established that it is probably a little something called TMJ. Great. All I know, is that it hurts. The popping is getting slightly out of control, and the pain is becoming more constant. It's not like stabbing, but like my jaw bones are slowly stretching out of my cheeks, and swelling up. The swelling sort of pain. I don't think it's a good thing, and probably need to get it checked out.
Today was a very unproductive day, but frankly, I enjoyed it. I wasn't in the mood to really get anything done anyway.