Jan 23 2010

THIS IS THE ONE HUNDRETH BLOG POST!!!!!!!!!!
Congratulations, I made it. :]
Today was a pretty boring Saturday. I got to sleep in, after we had our giant sleepover in the front room. (me, Tori and April) I tried to get a little bit of homework done, but Troy was distracting me, so I didn't get very far. :] But that's okay. I didn't mind. We then made a trip to WalMart, and got some shopping done. :] We attended the USU hockey game tonight as well, me, Tori, Jordan, and Kallin then watched Cloudy With a Chance of Meatballs. It was just as cute as the first time.
That was my day in a nut shell.
I'm terrified for tomorrow. I can't explain it. I'm very excited, because it is such an important deal. But I'm really nervous. We will see I guess. You will hear about it. :]
I'm doing better than I thought I would be. So that is very good. I just really wish two things.
A) I were home.
B) I were home.
I want a hug. I want to talk to Troy. I want to make sure our house is clean. I want to see that my sisters are actually eating, and getting their school stuff done.
But I'm not. And I can't really do those things anymore. Which sucks a lot, but it's going to all work out. It will. :]
We're starting a new week tomorrow.
I think I can take on one more. :]

Jan 22 2010

I made it to Friday.
But Friday almost killed me.
I am the most fortunate girl on the whole planet though. This is why.
I have two amazing best friends, that will do anything for me. They are the greatest strongest two girls I know, and I don't know how I ended up with them. I had to have done something to deserve them, and I don't know what it was. I love you both, forever and always. :]
I have an awesome father, who puts up with all of his girls and the crap we give him. He's an amazing provider, and has given us everything we need and more.
Thanks daddy. :]
My two sisters are great. They are so strong, and have been so supportive and obedient. They put up with a hard life, and I'm grateful for them. Ohh I just love you two. Red and Cork. :]
Troy. He is great, and listens to everything I say, no matter how mindless and stupid. I'm lucky to have him. He's an amazing person, with an amazing spirit. I'm grateful my mother set us up. :]
My mom. She struggles. And although I'm not always happy with her choices, she has done a lot for me and my sisters. I have seen the real her, we all have. I pray that she makes it through this. I want my mom back. I love her.
I have come to realize a lot in my life. I have been through a lot. When Friday came today, I didn't think I was ready. I didn't know how to react. What to feel. What to say. I was afraid for this day to come.
It came.
And, I'm not afraid anymore.
I know, that someway, somehow, this will all be okay. I know it will be. I have an amazing example as an elder brother. Having him in my life, makes me the luckiest of all. If he can deal with this pain, and so much more, I know that I can. I know I can. We can. As a family, we can be strong. Together, we can do anything. We're The Pages.

Jan 21 2010

This part of my life, I like to call The Grind.
I was doing school today, from eleven, to eight thirty. Are you aware of how long that is? And, I didn't even get everything I was supposed to done. I'm not joking around when I say this semester is intense. But I'm actually learning to like it. I don't have time to just sit around and waste money, or stare at facebook or do other things that aren't as productive. I'm not watching any TV, so I'm not seeing all those awful things. :] It's actually been a blessing, so I'm going to take advantage of it I guess, and say that the craziness of this semester, has actually been really good for me.
I just enjoy the breaks, when I get to go home, and live my other life, where I have nothing to do but relax, and see my family, and Troy. I still like life number two better, but I'm appreciative of life number one.
You will never guess who I saw again today. Oh yes, that's correct. The David. HOWEVER guess what he did today? Said "WHITNEY! HI!! How are you?" Now, he wants to talk to me? But I'm so above that, and I answered his questions, and was very polite.
So much for my causing great embarrassment. It just wasn't worth it. We attempted to go to the Temple today, but they were closed for cleaning. I'm quite confident, I just heard gunshots. And I know I'm not the only one, cuz I saw some lights go on in Building A, and someone got out of bed here. Well..........let's hope I make it through the night. I just got off the phone with Troy. I'm actually learning to enjoy phone conversations. I know I'm so behind, because talking on the phone is like so sixth grade, but I don't care. I'm used to it now, and I like being able to actually hear him. Jordan is coming up tomorrow, so me and Tori are going to have to find something to entertain him with.....I personally want to spend the weekend sleeping. But that is so not going to fly, because Tori is little miss social butterfly, and wants more friends, so we get invited to Birthday parties and such. Which reminds me of a story about my dear Tori. Today, since we spend about nineteen hours out of the day together, we were walking across campus, and there was slush all over the sidewalks. (We live in Logan, and our snow sticks. And stays. For a long time.) So we were walking in this particularly slushy area of cement, both slowing so we don't get too wet (I've already experienced that.) and so we don't fall. When what happens? This random man, comes out of no where, and full on sprints right next to Tori through the slush. This action, caused the slush to lift from it's place on the ground, and collide with Tori's legs, arms, and boots. It was the funnniest thing I had seen all day. I couldn't stop laughing. It was great. Me and Tori have been having a lot of these moments lately. Moments where people stare as they walk by, because the two of us are bent over in hysterics at some stupid story we created, or something dumb one of us said. It's so great, and I wouldn't trade it for the world. I'm so lucky.

Jan 20 2010

I have one very devastating story to share with you all today. Everyone remembers The David correct? Well, I saw him today. This is how it played out.
I'm walking along, listening to my ipod, thinking about my ToDo list, and how weird the kid that just walked by was.
I look up, and see The David coming up the sidewalk to my left, and there is a girl about a foot or so to his left, walking with him.
Me and The David make eye contact.
I smile, and say hi.
The David does nothing, puts his arm around the girl, and pulls her in nice and close and smirks at me.
Ask me how I felt.
Jerk! I was only trying to be nice to him. And what does he do? Flip. I was so mad. I stopped walking right there in the middle of the sidewalk and was seriously shocked. What did he think I was like obsessed with him and was fallling at his feet? We went on one date! And it wasn't even really a date. Bahhh. I thought we were FRIENDS. Apparently girls cannot have friends that are guys these days. When I talked to Troy on the phone, he mentioned the missionaries that can't get out of the misssion, and they talk about the mission all the time and can't stop thinking about it. The David is one of these people. It's been driving me crazy all day, and I can't wait until the next time I see him. I haven't exactly thought out what I'm going to do, but it will be dramatic and probably cause him great embarrassment. I just was completely shocked that he did that. It's not like I care about him, or this girl. I'm glad he is dating her......or whatever. We had NOTHING. I thought we were Biology friends. Anyway. Guess what I bought today? A GIGANTIC jar of pickles. The thing is huge. But it was a wayy great price, and I love pickles. But that is not even the best part of this purchase. April came home from work, and she as well stopped by WalMart sometime throughout the day. What did she pull out of her plastic grocery bag (don't worry, I'm recycling them. :] ) but a large jar of pickles to match mine. :] I took a picture of it. And although I would like to post it on here, and figure that all out, I need to be going to bed. We're going to the temple early early in the morning, and it is going to be a great long day. :] Happy hump day.

Jan 19 2010

Sometimes, you just don't have the time. Today, was one of those times. I was running everywhere. I had classes straight from eleven to four, then a meeting with the Education people. So I was doing school until about five, then began homework. I just finished. :] I love this. It's so splendid. Those are the boring details of my day, with nothing really exciting intertwined. I found out tonight that I'm going to be getting my Patriarchal Blessing on Sunday. I'm extremely excited. But, nervous as well. I'm terrified it's going to say something scary. Which I know, the odds of that are like a million to one. But still. We will see I guess. It's exciting. :] Things are getting crazier and crazier, and I feel like my life has hit a superspeed button I didn't know existed. It's quite annoying. I'm not exactly sure what I'm doing, and it's making me kind of nervous. I just wish that there were a way for me to know exactly how everything was going to play out. What I was going to do this summer, how I was going to work, what I need to be doing, and the list goes on. But it's not going to happen, and I know this. But I can still wish right? I'm really exhausted, and have to wake up at six thrity to work out with Tori. We'll see how this goes. I talked to Troy on the phone earlier, and then I distracted him from his Chemistry on facebook. I'm awful. There is nothing to update there, we're in different cities. I look forward to the end of this week.

Jan 18 2010

My bad. I went home, and well, you all know how well I do at this when I'm home. Especially with my lack of time lately, and the distractions. :] Friday was a reallly long day. I felt like classes took forever, probably because I was so anxious to get home. But in my Creative Arts class, the teacher had me laughing so hard. She reminds me a lot of Grandma Judy, her personality, and the way she talks. She's adorable. But she was doing this demonstration, and someone dissed one of the kids on stage, and she broke into a full on "Ohhhhhh Shnnappp" right there on stage. She even bent over, and put her hand to her mouth. No joke. It was one of the funniest things I had ever seen in my life. The whole class was laughing. It was great. In ASL I actually talked with Tracy's roommate Emily, who is in my class, and who I didn't really get along with before. But I hung out with her, Tracy, and Nate before class, and that was fun. We will hopefully become friends. :] No offense, but I want friends that can sign. :] Me and Tori then ventured homeward. :] It was quite the trip, as it always is, and we were laughing the whole way. I decided however, I'm taking on a new project. Because it is so cold here, cold enough to see your nose breath according to Tori, I want to save the farm animals. I mean, there are tons of them just standing outside, freezing. We're going to round them all up, and put them in the Spectrum for the winter, to keep warm. :] It's a great project, and is going to be widely accepted through campus. I saw Parker and Ben, and we went to Zupa's together. I jjust love those two. :] Parker is a very good friend. After that, drum role, I saw Troy! :] He came and picked me up, and then we went to watch a movie at his house. I was very impressed however, cuz we went to Hollywood, and I thought this was going to be quite the task, picking out a movie. But we were in there for like five minutes tops, cuz he already knew what he wanted to watch. :] It was a great choice too, cuz we watched Clue. I had never seen it, and it's my very favorite boardgame, and I loved it. Recommended. Saturday was spent mostly with Tori, and we had a blast. :] We may have frightened Hadley, but it was really great. I just love her. That night we went on a double, and Troy dominated in bowling. Luckily I beat Tori both times, so I guess I didn't do terrible. But it was really fun. We went to Tori's and watched a couple of movies afterwards. (See, more movies. My life is just filled with them. It's great.) Troy caused some drama on Sunday. Okay so not exactly drama, but he did cause some conversation. We both went to the home ward, and he sat next to me and my dad in Sunday School. That got people to talk in Relief Society. I'm totally used to it of course, and it doesn't even bother me anymore, I just hope he realizes what he's getting himself into. :] I told him this, and he laughed. He doesn't know I'm serious. Oh well. :] Today is now Monday. And I'm all the way back in Logan, and not quite happy about it. It was really really hard to leave. :/ I am sad about it. But there really isn't anything I can do about it. But this is the blog, and this is where my thoughts go. And those are my thoughts. I just don't feel that into school all of a sudden. I know I'm supposed to be here, and this is what I want in the long run. But right now, it just feels more like a chore than how I want it to be. Hopefully things will get better this week, and I will get back into the swing of things. I'm hoping that's all I need, and then everything will go back to normal. :] I miss family though. And Troy. Luckily, I have Tori. It's late, and we're both exhausted. This was a boring catch up post.

Jan 14 2010

Oh the joys of the blog. I love this thing, I don't care how much crap it takes. :] I like being able to share whatever comes into my head at any given time throughout the day. :] Speaking of that, today I did something I thought was very smart. I created a "BLOGWORTHY" list on a index card. :] All day long, I have been writing things down I didn't want to leave behind for only me to remember. So let's get started. Today was reallllly long. As I have already established T/TH classes are really long. But they are slowly starting to grow on me. I reallly like my institute class, and love that I get to share it with April and Tori. That Human Development class is also beginning to creep off my hate list. I really enjoy the professor, she cares A LOT about students, and our success. It's really great. So I'm hopefully going to suceed in that class. :] I'm becoming very positive about the semester as a whole. It's a lot of work, but I'm kind of excited about it. I got to visit the Elementary school on campus today with my ELED class. It's so cool!! I'm soo excited. I was so nervous, but now I'm actually getting really excited about becoming a teacher. Especially from USU. It is in the top 50 colleges of education in the entire country. So, this is pretty legit, seeing as there are over 1200. The DeafEd program is also among the top, so that's just the double whammy. I realized today that this is hopefully a good decision. I feel like I'm in the right place for it (obviously) and although it's going to be a challenge, seeing as young children are GERM INFESTED, I feel good about it, and like it's something I'm going to be able to do. :] I don't think the science career was right. I mean, there are few women in the field. The demand is far lower than teacher's, and although the pay is better, the negatives out weigh. I'm not a fan of the lack of religion within the scientific career field either. Scientists aren't exactly known for their devotion to Church. They are Scientists...........pretty obvious. Leaving the Elementary school today I saw my very favorite person (okay not my very favorite, but for the point of this story, he has to be very important) but it was the bicycle guy! I see him all the time on campus, and I'm sure I have mentioned him a few times in posts of the past. But he was reading while riding down 700 N. It was amazing. :] He never is riding the bike like a normal person would, but with skills that some people only can dream of possessing. His persistance in bike-trickery (even when temperatures here are well below comfortable) impresses me. :] I am fascinated by all the people I see on Campus. I know it's so creepy, but I love to watch them. :] As I walk from class to class, I make up stories about the people that surround me. The girl that sits next to me in class could be a struggling mom, who went back to school to fulfill the dreams she had before the family. The next time, her story might change slightly, by something new I happen to notice. The lack of a ring. A picture on her desktop. It's my way of revisiting a childhood imagination that I never could control. :] My newest interest is a woman in mine and Tori's Human Development class. She is an older woman, obviously farther into her life than mine. She is also slightly larger, and doesn't look like she frequently shops at Nordstroms. There is something I find so intriguing about her however. She always carries a backpack, a pink one, and a large jean "mom" bag. She always with out fail, comments on things in class, and although they are extremely simple comments, I love when she does. She is crazy polite to everyone. I can see how everyone looks at her. Judgemental. And downward. It's annoying to me. Her name is Debra. I'm determined to add to her story. After school today, I spent some more time in the Library. I'm getting a lot done before the weekend however, cuz I hate when I have homework when I go home. It's just really not fun. :/ I had to rush to a DESA meeting tonight as well. And that was good. I'm really good at receptive. I know what everyone is saying. What makes me nervous, is responding. I always do good. And they don't look at me with dazed expressions, but still, I'm so scared. Hopefully it will get better the more exposure as the semester goes on, and I get back into the swing of things. I found out tonight however, that next year, I'm in line for President/VP of the DESA club. I'm terrified. Haha I don't know what to do! We will see. :] I ate in the Marketplace all by myself tongiht. It was actually kind of nice. I don't want to do it all the time, but I love when I get nights like this. I came home, after my lovely meal in solitutde, and found myself home alone. :] I changed into sweats, got a blanket and cuddled up on the couch. :] I was exploring on my computer, trying to do some not so important class things, and Troy called. :] We talked for a really long time, and I'm confident that it was the longest phone conversation I have ever been able to hold in my entire life. Kudos. I'm so very glad I get to go home tomorrow. :] Not to be too cheesy, but it's been harder than I imagined it to be. :/ He told me the funniest story about meeting an apostle however. :] Haha they met at a urinal, at a Bee's baseball game. :] Best apostle meeting story EVER. It's awesome. I'm turning in early tonight, as soon as me and April finish the lovely Disney movie we are watching. :] Oh Selena Gomez.