So, I have been a slacker. Rigggghht. My bad. I'll catch you up real quick. :] Tuesday. :] I baked at Fort Union again, and it was good as always. I really like it up there. But today was especially exciting, because I get to do something so cool next weekend! Christian called, and told me to whip up some special sugar cookies, so I obeyed, and kinda spun my own personality on them, and then he came and looked at them, and explained what they were for. Get this, he is doing the Bridal Show in Salt Lake next weekend, and that's what the cookies were for. And, this is the greatest part, so if you're not sitting (which would be bizarre) sit down. I get to go! He liked my cookies, and offered to take me to the show with him. :] Idk why I'm so excited, but I am. :] It's going to be just great. Tuesday night was our Open House, and it actually went well. A lot of people showed up, and we had so many cookies (still do) and that is disgusting. Oh well, it went good, and there are pictures. My mom went out of control, and did all sorts of cool decorations and extravagent cookie displays. After the Open House, Troy took me away from all the madness, and we went to his house and watched Paperheart. Which is a suppper cute mockumentary, that is kinda Indie, but I loved it! Super good. :] It was a very good night. He held my hand. Finally. Haha so it's good. :] He's so cute. So so so awkward. But cute. Wednesday pretty much went exactly the same. Baked in Fort Union, came home, and then went and hung out with Troy. :] We went to Smith's, bought supplies, and then he made me Brazilian food. It was so good! I had lots of fun. Then we just hung around, watched a couple of movies, and some Sportscenter. :] It was great. Lots of fun. Phew. Okay, so today is Thursday, and now I'm all caught up. Today was my last day at the FU store, and that is sad. :/ Hopefully I'll be there next week during the Bridal Show, because I really like Mckenna. (She is the girl who has opened everyday I have been there, and has helped me out A TON, she's super cool.) Then I came home, and discovered something fantastic. A new show. :] I'm actually watching it at this moment, it's called Burn Notice. So good. He is an awesome dude. I wish I had his skills. Tonight is New Years, and I'm pretty much dreading it. Which is sad, because it will probably be fun. I'm hoping. But New Years Eve has always sucked. Year after year, it's just been not great. Kaleb incident. Cam incident. I'm nervous this year will end up in a Troy incident. Or something worse. But I'm doing my best to be positive. :] Here is the agenda, I'm going to go to the Johnson's with my parents, eat dinner, see the people ther for a little bit, and then me and Troy are going to head to Tori's and hang out with her and Hadley. I'm excited to see her!! I miss her greatly. I'm wearing big earrings just for her, because they're her very favorite. I also will be meeting Jordan tonight, which should be interesting. We'll see how this goes. :] Positive thoughts right? Troy had a rough day though. I can tell it's bugging him more than he is letting on, and I'll post what happened as soon as I figure it out. Hmmm. Lately I have just been plucking petals off daisies.
Dec 28 2009
Skipped yesterday. So we'll do a brief refresher course, woke up really late, ate breakfast, then my family made us late for church, and well that was outraging. We all know how much I hate being late for church. :] During church, me and Parker were put IN CHARGE of the Nursery class we subbed in a few weeks ago. That was an adventure and a half. But it actually went alright, and no one died or was severely injured, and I actually had fun. Even if it was totally gross. :] After church we quick delivered our invites to the open house, and then headed up to Gma and Gpa Page's for the Christmas dinner/get together. (Not really sure what to call it....) Anyhow, we went to that, and saw everyone. And ohh our family is large. :] We for surely need to find a much larger, maybe sound barrier-equipped room to have our family parties in. :] I'm confident it will cut the madness in at least half. :] We came home, and then played that Popcorn game again. It's so fun. Haha I'm not even sure why we like it so much, we're not that great at it. Haha. But it's fun. More and more bittersweet going back up to Logan. I'll miss the family-funness we have been sharing, especially now that my father has completely lost his mind. I'll miss my good friends here too, new and old. Oh well. :] If they matter, I'll see them again. :] So, today, Monday, was quite a day. I baked in the Fort Union store for the first time ever. Weird experience. First of all, I got lost. Then, Quinn was really late getting there, so I sat in an abandoned parking lot, in a city I know nothing about, all by myself while the creepy sidewalk sweeper man made his rounds. Yes, I was legitly scared. But baking went very smoothly. My sugars were superb (but, hello. We knew this already) and I was out like so fast. I like baking there. :] After work, I was very tired, so I watched Jurassic Park, and just kinda lounged around for a couple of hours. I talked to Devin however. (R.M from Logan, who lives in Jersey) He likes me. :] He told me. Haha so we will probably be hanging out when we both return to USU. Look for that. :] We then went to Plato's Closet, and while I scored some great clothing items, my sisters didn't. :/ Unfortunate, and I felt bad for dragging them along. Oh well. They find more stuff at the mall than I do all the time anyway. So I'm not worried. Our entire house is filled with cookies of all varieties. I'm pretty sure, in the future, I will dream all about cookies. It will haunt me for the rest of my life. That is just not good. My poor therapist will have a lot of decoding to do....
Dec 26 2009
So, my family is apparently one filled with creeper-like qualties, because we wait until twelve thirty or so to do some grocery shopping. That is where I am just returning from, the lovely Wal-Mart. And folks, go right ahead and believe everything you hear about Wal-Mart after a certain point in the night. It's like there is this point, where suddenly everyone creepy comes out and goes grocery shopping. It's super weird. And clearly, we are them, because that is what we do in our household, so I have nothing bad to say about it. Today was better than I thought it was going to be. I had to wake up extremely early and go to work, but it actually wasn't that bad of a day. I'm really nervous to bake in the other store next week, but kind of excited, because it's going to be so much easier for me. :] I mean, they do like 5-10 trays per day. That's insane. Today, I did 19, and it was an extremely slow day. Madness the difference between the stores. Madness. But today, me and Rachael actually got out early, and that was nice. I then proceeded to race home, shower at extreme speeds, and meet my parents in the madness of 106th at Five Guys (A DELICIOUS burger restaraunt, that I am currently in a love-hate relationship with. Love the food, Hate the establishment, and lack of space) It was very delicious, and then we went up to Jordan Commons with the rest of the county to see a movie. :] We ended up getting into "A Christmas Carol." I was really impressed with the way it was made, and it's as good of a story as it ever was, but the movie......creeped me out. It had some unneccessary creep-things, and if I were a small child, I probably would have been terrified. After the movie, we split off into parental units, and sisters and got some serious clothes shopping done. I revealed my Plato's Closet skills on my sisters, and we came out with some awesome stuff, at an awesome price. :] That place should seriously be paying me for the advertising I do for it. I tell everyone. And tonight, I shared my secrets of getting the best stuff. :] It's awesome. That store is my addiction. We then came home, the sisters beating the parental units home, so we watched some really stupid scary movies on T.V. Quality waste of our time. However, then we busted out a new game I got for Christmas, "Pass the Popcorn" and it was really fun! We were all very into it, and my dad eventually won, although, we just let him win, so he would feel good. :] But it was a really fun game, and we were all laughing and having a grand old time. I'm now suppper exhausted. Nursery duty tomorrow. :]
Dec 25 2009
Woot Christmas of 2009. This year has just flown. Can't believe it. It's been alright though. :] Today was a pretty good day. We didn't have to wake up too early, but it was still earlier than I wanted to be up. Ha. We did the stocking dealio, and then went out and opened presents. I thought it was a pretty good year. I got a hot chocolate maker, scripture case, scripture marking pencils, a cowboy boot ornament, new blanket, purple luggage from Caitlyn, a whiteboard calendar and markers from Courtney, Marilyn Monroe playing cards and a puzzle from Gma and Gpa (with a purple jacket), stackable CTR rings, an "ILY" necklace from mom and dad, a pocket nativity, an itunes card, money for clothes, and I believe that is it. (that was for my personal record, not just so that all of you knew. Remember, this has become my journal.) Our family got a Wii Fit Plus, and after opening presents, we played that basically all day, until we went to Carol's for Christmas. It was weird this year, probably because there weren't as many people, but it was still nice. :] We had really good ham, and got to spend time as a family, which is always nice. Alyssa and Collin even brought the twins...This Christmas however, was slightly bittersweet. I was glad to be home, and just spending time with family and what not, however, this year was really different from past Christmas' in my life. While all the family drama was going down, and I was raging, and needed someone to talk to, there was no one. He is countries and countries away and the only communication we have is the good old Snail Mail. It's great, don't get me wrong, but today was the first time I actually realized how much I relied on him, and he truly was my best friend. I hope that doesn't ever go away, no matter what happens, and he will always be my best friend, and there for me to vent to, whenever that may need be. :] I wish him the best of luck, and a Merry Christmas. Cyler said he has already been in the field for two days, and has a baptism. (Granted, he just happened to transfer into one, but still, that's pretty cool. :] ) You will be posted on what other mail things come about. I'm not sure if he got my last letter, hopefully, but you never know. I got to talk to Troy today though, and he was very nice in wishing me a "Feliz Natal" and such. He's a very nice kid. :] We just played the Wii Fit again, and oh my. Some of these games are HILARIOUS to watch being played. Like hilarious. Especially with my father. :] Haha I'm pretty sure this will be a family adventure for a long time. Anyhow, I now I have to go to bed, because I have to make cookies for sticky grimey children at five o'clock in the morning. :/
Dec 24 2009
Livid. This is the second time I posted for today. I hate the lame internet connection I don't get at home. Bah. Anyhow, Merry Christmas. :] Today actually went off pretty well. I woke up very late, to an empty house, and an empty shower, and the table was already all set and decorated fancy for dinner. My mom even felt weird, cuz we really had nothing to do. It was nice though. I got a lot done, and discovered two great things on the internet. One, Pandora radio. Love it. :] I definitely favorite listed that one. Two, Tetris.com. :] I forgot just how great playing Tetris truly is. Haha. But besides all that, I got a bunch of letters written, and schedules and what not figured out, and that was good. I also realized I miss Tori. :/ I'm ready to go back to Logan, and get back onto a regular schedule. :] Anyway, Christmas Eve. We had the Theurer family over for dinner, and Grandma and Grandpa Yager also joined us. We had a really good Turkey dinner, followed by a lovely pagaent by the Theurer kids. They did the Nativity, and I liked their own personal twists. (There are PLENTY of pictures of these goings ons on the facebook, so check them out.) After the pageant, we did the annual (drum role) singing under the blanket. This tradition, not many know of, because, well it's slightly odd, and I'm pretty sure it started as an accident. But hey, it stuck, and it works for us. :] I thought for sure, this year it was going to be a hassle to get all the kids to do it, especially Jacob, since he's super old and super cool now, but it actually wasn't, and everyone was really excited. :] We just need to brush up on our Christmas songs before next year.....After that we got the Reindeer food, and spread it out all over our lawn. This year however, we attracted a special visitor. :] My parents, discovered this head lamp flashlight thing, and the wonders of red cellophane. So, my father took the contraption, ran across the streeet, hid behind the neighbor's bushes, and played Rudolph for the night. :] If I wouldn't have known, I probably would have been legitimately creeped out. But I think the kids thought it was cool, and were only slightly creeped out. :] Once everyone else left, we opened our lovely Christmas pajamas, and recorded stories for Grandpa Page's gift. Hopefully he thinks it's cool, me and my dad thought it was a pretty good idea. Then the three of us watched "All About Steve" which wasn't what I expected, but I still ended up liking it. Very glad I didn't waste eight dollars on a movie ticket however. Merry Christmas. :]
Dec 23 2009
Finally got around to writing Jake today, so that was very good. I feel good about that. Finished off the last of the shopping with my little sisters and Parker at the mall today, and that was an endeavor. I don't understand why the entire world (our family is also at fault here, but for this post, we will simply ignore this fact) waits until the last possible second to buy Christmas presents. I mean, Christmas has never changed days. It's not like February 29th where it just decides to show up every four years, it is always, and always will be, December 25. So, why in the world, do people declare December 23 as national buy almost everything on your list day? It's insane. My favorite part about this madness however, is the fact that people have the nerve to get mad at the employees, or companies, when they are told that something just cannot be ready by Christmas. It's not their fault that you waited until the 23rd you oaf, don't yell at them for your idocracies. It fascinates me. Luckily, our adventures in the mall went very smoothly, and we found everything we needed, and finished on a very nice note. :] As we sat, eating our Pretzel Time and Orange Julius (the staple trip to the mall food) we found ourselves across from the lovely Hollister clothing store. (For those that are unaware of what Hollister is, it is a store that has extremely high prices, and audition to work there to make sure you "look the part" and is known for it's prestige among high school students) Anyway, outside of this particular store was where we were, and we watched as people walked by, in, out and around this store. It was the most entertaining thing I have ever done. I noticed, no one walked out of the stores with bags. We sat there for a good forty five minutes, and I never saw one person walk out a customer. We also found that it was an entertainment for the not so prestigious high school students to venture into Hollister, and see how long they could last. It was hilarious. This became the highlight of my week. Grunged down, pierced, long hair covered boys would come out the store with looks of disgust, and shock at what they had just experienced. I never thought I could get such a joy out of a simple task. When I came home, I spent a large majority of my time on Facebook, chatting away with Troy. Waste of time, yes. But it was pretty fun. :] We added sledding to our Brazilian dinner making date, so we will see how that goes. Rumor has it we're both pretty clumsy, so hopefully we both walk away uninjured. After dinner I got roped into the shopping rink again, this time assisting my father, who had no idea how to buy for my mother. It went well however, and we succeeded. :] Luckily, Christmas is in just two days, so this madness will continue no longer. :] I just dubbed the worst job in America to the Customer Service people at Wal-Mart. Imagine the bagillions of returns they have to suffer through when the 27th rolls around. Unfortunate beings. Someone should dedicate something to them.
Dec 22 2009
Totally revamped the blog page, in case you didn't notice. Haha but no worries, I had no idea what I was doing, and those small changes (pretty sure none of you noticed them) took me about......two hours. So I fail at technology. Give me a break. :] Today was a busy day at Smart Cookie, however I was running the front, so I wasn't bothered much by the baking stress, just the customer stress, which I have realized, is farrrr better. After work I made dinner! It was great. I'm so amazing now. I made steak fajitas. My family has lost their minds, like really. My parents were both doing some weird stuff tonight. Funny, but weird. But we still love them. :] I officially cut ties with everyone today. I know this means nothing to anyone, but I was so done, I just started erasing people. :] So, if your'e one of them, sorry. Eh. Life goes on. I watched the BYU Bowl game at the Petersen's with my dad, and just talked to Troy. :] Again, we will see. (My favorite line.) He did however invite me to help him make me brazilian food, so we will see how that goes. Watch me burn his house down. That would be an awesome story. I can't believe Christmas is so stinking close. Shopping day tomoorow. Woo.
Dec 21 2009
Two months! That is today. And today, well it was not so fabulous. We had the annual Christmas Cookie making get together at Carol's house, and that was all great, however, I got called into work in the middle. I was so mad. When I got to Smart Cookie, I wasn't really even needed, so I had no idea why I showed up, and I kind of freaked out. Ha. But everything is all good. I just sometimes, really really hate my job. Talked to Troy a lot today. We'll see. That seems to be the answer for everything now a days. "We'll see." I dont' exactly like it. I would really like to know what is going to happen. But I guess that would be like reading the last chapter of a suspense book. Even if we could read the end of our stories, I don't think they would make much sense. There are bound to be new characters introduced before our books end, and a new setting, theme, mood, everything will be different. So, I guess, waiting is a much better choice. A lot is different. I love being home. Love the holidays, and seeing all my family, and the old people from my ward and what not. But it hurts to see the old things that I will never be a part of anymore. Some by choice, and others just because that's the way life goes. I hate it. Oh well. Tori and me created a story today on each others facebooks, because we didn't get to see one another today. She is great. I'm so excited that these posts will be forever filled with our fabulous adventures as roommates, best friends, and whatever else we happen to be in our lifetime. I'm ready for Logan. :/ I suck at home. Haha
Dec 20 2009
Tomorrow just happens to be Cameron's two month mark! (It's actually ten minutes from now, I'm up late again, big surprise.) But that is crazy. It has been good however. I haven't gotten a letter for a while, and I haven't written since the beginning of the month. But thats alright. Whatever happens, happens. I did get his address today, so that is one less thing I need to worry about, so thank you Rodaboughs. Let's see what else we have missed. I have been doing A LOT of baking at Smart Cookie. And it has not been easy. It's really stressful, and I like it, but it's really hard. Ha. Long hours, and hard work. But I'm glad to have the job, as means of money, and something to occupy my time with. Because without it, I would be going crazy! I'm having fun at home, and am actually impressed by the things I'm getting done. :] I know everyone is dying to hear if anything happened with Troy. Because I mean, you are all enthralled in my love life. I know. :] But something did. We went out again on Friday, and it was a lot of fun. Each date gets less and less awkward, and we talk more and more. Friday night we went to an Indian restaraunt, which I had never experienced before, and it was really good! After, we met his friends, and went bowling, which I failed at horribly for the first time in life, but it was still good. :] He is super cute, and a lot of fun to hang out with. Saturday, I had a crazy busy day baking at Smart Cookie, and I very well could have lost my mind. But Troy came in and saw me, and that was nice. :] I had a date for that night with an old friend from high school, but ended up cancelling because I was beat. I happened to be talking to Troy when I left, and told him I would probably just be spending the night at home. He very sweetly offered to relieve me of my bad day stresses, and take me to a movie. :] It was very nice of him. I declined however, because I didn't think I would make it through a movie, and I didn't want to be known as that-one-girl-that-passed-out-on-me-during-our-third-date. Not exactly a title I want to bear, I mean just look at the length. That just wouldn't do. So I spent the night vegging with Jen and Melissa, we went to the new In-n-Out, and got french fries, got back massages from her little sister's friends (who left their mark, especially on my knots.), and watched some Criminal Minds. Overall, it was a very good weekend. There were however, some dark spots. But you know, it's really best not to dwell on those patches. Let's just say, coming home, isn't always filled with new and happy experiences. Sometimes, the changes that you, and others, have decided to make, creep back into your life, and cause some drama. Drama I really don't want to be a part of, and am done thinking about. :] Tonight I went over to Kim Johnson's, and we had one of our long chat sessions, and I caught her up on everything I have been up to. It was really great. :] Everything is so different now! It's madness. I just can't believe it. But it's good at the same time. I only have one negative about all the fabulous things going on, and that's that Cameron doesn't get to see them all happen. I hope he knows though. Through some sort of Missionary power. :] Haha that's slightly wrong of me, but I don't care. I'm going to be writing Jake Porter a letter tomorrow, and I'm actually looking forward to it. Good times we shared, and I consider us to be very good friends. :] Who knows, maybe he will be attractive when he comes home. :] We made Maddison a blanket for Christmas, because she has been having such a rough time. I think she is spending the holiday in Washington with her family, but she knows our house is always open. Tomorrow me and Tori are going shopping for a gift for April, and I'm helping her choose one for Hadley. I feel like it's going to be a good week. And not just because it's Christmas. :] Everything, is going to work out. Regardless. And I love that.
Dec 14 2009
Okayy, so I have extremely failed at blogging while I have been home, and I can't even say that it has been a busy couple of days, cuz I really haven't done that much. Thursday I just hung out at home, just glad to be over with school and such. Friday, sucked. I worked two shifts at Smart Cookie, one in the morning frosting cookies like there was no tomorrow to help Jen, and then I pulled a counter shift that night as well, and worked with a new girl, Briana. Luckily it was really slow, so I was able to get some baking done as well. Saturday was the day of excitement since I have been home. I woke up bright and early, and got to Smart Cookie at about five, and spent the next ten hours baking my butt off, all by myself. I was going so fast, so that I could be out of there for my date. I don't think I stopped doing something once. It was an exhausting feat. But all boring baking details aside, I made it out alive, and on time. I got home, got ready for my date, and was so exhausted, but still excited. It was a really fun date! I had lots of fun getting to know Troy, and we walked around Temple Square, and then went to the Christmas Program that MOTAB does every year. It was really good. :] I liked going, because I haven't been in so long, and I kind of missed them. Natalie Cole was there as well, and wow. She is kind of a diva. She had her own blinged out microphone, and conductress. But it was still amazing. :] We ate at Macaroni Grill after, and walked back to the car. I really did have a good time, and maybe we will get to hang out again. We will see. :] Tori is now in a relationship with the lovely Hadley. So that is great. She is happy. :] Maddison. Her Christmas break got off to an interesting start. The day before she was leaving for Washington, money in hand, everything all packed out, checked out of the apartment, she gets a phone call from her dad telling her that she cannot come home. Her mother didn't want her to come home, and they were coming to Utah on the nineteenth, and they would see her then. She didn't know what she was going to do. She didn't have anywhere to stay, no money to pay for a hotel, and her dad wouldn't answer any of her questions. She called and told me this. Minutes later, I got a phone call from Tori, who was bawling. She was so mad at Maddison's parents, and didn't understand how anyone could treat their own child like that. They resolved the situtation however, and Maddison is spending the next week at Tori's house in Alpine. I will hopefully be hanging out with them tomorrow, and I'll be meeting Maddison's twin, Mckall. We will just see how that goes. I'm extremely nervous for that little adventure. Today was one of the more boring days of my life. I did nothing. Absolutely nothing. It was torture. I talked to Troy, and I have no idea how he has managed to survive the past four months. Luckily I begin working again tomorrow, so I'll have something to do. I also decided I'm really going to do Miss Eagle Mountain this year. Ha. I want to try something spontatneous and new. Why not a pageant? Tesha did pageants. I will ask her for help. :] When my dad got home tonight, he was seriously WIRED. It was the most bizarre thing. He did the weridest things. Strange moonwalk dances in the kitchen, hugging the warm dishes from the dishwasher to his body, singing, the works. It was strange. We then embarked on an adventure to Wal-Mart and Smiths, where we bought eleven cartons of ice cream, just because it was on sale. :] Strange. I'll work on this blog thing.
Dec 9 2009
I didn't imagine myself spending my last night in Logan alone, on our couch, watching reruns of Top Chef on Bravo. We had a lovely roommate dinner tonight at Chili's, that was really fun, and really filling for all of us. I'm really glad we did that, right before everyone left. It was good for all of us to get out, and be able to just spend time with each other without the stress of school for an hour and a half. Then we came home, I was kicked out of my bedroom by Tori and Maddison who both have finals at seven thirty tomorrow morning, so me and April sat through the longest movie I have ever watched. Julie and Julia. It was good, don't get me wrong. And I did laugh out loud quite a few times. However, I have a very short attention span. Spending 2 hours plus watching a random girl cook her way through an obnoxious chef's cookbook, was not exactly pleasing to my lack of focus. I finished it however, and was proud of that fact. Now I'm alone, and I'm leaving tomorrow, and it's really depressing. I know I come home all the time, but this is the longest I will spend away from here ever. It's really weird to think about. And this time, when I come back, some of the girls I have grown very close to, will no longer just be right down the hallway. It's very sad. Didn't make the 3.5 cut. Dang. I'm pretty confident, I ended with a 3.3 or 3.4. I was so close, it's extremely frustrating. College is a very tough ride, and I didn't expect it to be so. I'm mad at myself for not doing as well as I know I could. I'm at this brink of exhaustion, and stress overload however, that I have refused to dwell or care. I tried, and that's really all I have left to offer. I will take this break with open arms, and work my butt off next semester to save my GPA. Which hopefully, will be a successful adventure. I'm going to take this time to reflect on my first semester of college. I have learned a lot. Not only in the classroom, but about myself, and people in general. I have discussed it before, but I am amazed at the ability that people have to change. Whether the changes they have made are positive or negative, lies deeply rooted in the person, and their soul desires on where they want their lives to go. I have watched an amazing transformation occur in Maddison. I can see her differences. She has become a nice person, who is genuinely trying to be a better person. I am so proud to say that I knew such a person. She has been a valiant example to me. There are other people I have witnessed change, and their changes are not the kind I am glad to have noticed. It saddens me to know that there are so many people out there, who have proven the statistics correct. They are now away from home, and they have taken advantage of this freedom, and altered their lives in a bad way. I just hope that some day, they will realize how naive and childish they are being, and come back to the ways they know they are supposed to live. I look at the changes within myself. Not just the gushy church changes, but small things that don't exactly matter. I have become more tolerant of dirt. More tolerant of things that used to freak me out. I'm proud of myself. This has been a giant learning experience, and I only hope that it continues as I finish my schooling. I am so grateful for the people that I have in my life, and everything they have done for me to get here. I wouldn't be here without them, and I believe that the video played at my graduation dinner, was more than accurate. Because I knew all of you, whoever you may be, I have been changed for good. I'm going to miss you E403. But I will be back in one months time, and the adventures will only begin to continue.
Dec 8 2009
Tuesday. Today was absolutely boring. I slept in, which was very nice, seeing as I was seriously lacking in the amount of sleep I had retained over the past few days. Then we ventured to the Marketplace, and I headed off to my ASL final. It went very well. I feel very confident I got an extremely high grade, and I'm glad that I did really well in at least one class! I'm hoping that my report card reads all a's, with the stupid Biology exception of the C whatever. After my final, I came home and studied for a couple of hours, then read some of the book I'm currently entertained by, "The Secret Journal of Brett Colton." It's really good. It's a church book, about a girl who's brother died when she was really little, and then leaves her a journal for her to find on her sixteenth birthday. She meets the school quarterback (who is apparently extrememly attractive) who is Mormon, and they end up dating. I'm only halfway through, but I feel like he will convert her, and hopefully they will end up happily together for the rest of their lives. :] I like reading about her perspective on the Mormons, and the way that they conduct themselves. She mistakes Jason's kindness for fakeness, and then begins to realize, that that truly is who he is. I hope that someday I will be that kind. :] Ha. I talked to Parker today as well, which is good because I miss her greatly, and we haven't talked in forever. She is doing good. Hopefully her and Ben will be okay. We made a candybar run a while ago, because we all seriously needed some chocolate. I have been studying for my Psychology test most of the night, and me, Maddison, and Tesha have just been hanging out in the living room. I also talked to Troy today. I had to ask him about wardrobe requirements for Saturday, so I texted him. He answered my question, and then told me good luck on my finals. I idiotically said you too. I dont' think he is in school, therefore surely meaning he doesn't have finals. I'm an idiot. I'm hoping maybe he just read over it quickly, and thought nothing of it. Because that is a great first impression. Oh yeah. You're an idiot. Great. I will have to find some way to recover from this one. Tomorrow night is our last supper as roommates. It will be very sad. :/ I will take a lot of pictures. I'm sad. I like these girls. It has been so fun getting to know them, and I will miss different things about each one of them. I know we will see them next year, (Tesha and Maddison are coming back to Logan, and have promised to visit, or sacrifice their lives to me) but it is still sad. This is one of those situations where you are all forced into something new, and scary, so you reach out to whoever you can, and you become so much closer. I'm lucky to have met these girls, and hope that I have impacted their lives in a positive way. I hope when they think of me, they smile and shake their heads. I know that's what I will do when I think of both Maddison and Tesha. In church on Sunday Grant bore his testimony, and talked about going home for Christmas, and he made a valid point, that I think all of us agreed with. This Christmas is so different from the others. It means more to all of us to come home for the holiday, and be able to just be home with our families, and not have to worry about the stresses of school. It's very cool. Even if we are all stuck in the Limbo stage of life, where we are no longer young, not yet old. It's like the stage of life where we take everything we ever absorbed when being young, and have to quick sort it all out before we are old enough to actually apply it, and have it affect our lives, and our future families. Oh. I just love hanging out with these girls! I'm sad they are leaving. Maddison has this ability to make everyone laugh, by being totally serious. And Tesha's ability to make a normal situation completely awkward, and say everything that everyone is thinking. Next semester will be so weird.
Dec 6/7 2009
Sunday was a really good day. It started out with a great trip to church. It was so good. All of our new friends bore their testimonies and it was so cute. They all cried, and we cried, and it was just awesome. :] These boys will make really great missionaries in the very near future. I also choristed the music for the first time. Oh boy. I almost killed myself. I was standing on the little stair thing, leading away, I somehow lost my balance, my shoe slipped off of the stair, and I had to catch myself on the piano. It was almost a potentially extremely embarrassing situation. Can you imagine? The chorister's first week up there, she slips and knocks herself unconscious on the piano. It would be just grand. I could never ever live that down. And then to top it all off, in Sunday School, i tried to re-inact my almost death in front of the congregation, and actually almost killed myself. It was so embarrassing. I refuse to wear those shoes to church ever again. After church we came home and studied studied studied. Me and Tori spent a long time working for our Monday finals, and listened to fabulous church music. We took a break, made ourselves some dinner, and watched the Christmas Devotional. We then studied some more, and headed off to Ward Prayer. We were kind of stressed right before Ward Prayer because we realized that neither of us had Scantron sheets. Luckily, Grant, the attractive triplet, came to our rescue, calmed us down, and told us that he had Scantrons we could have. So later that night him and Tryn brought them over, and I made them Hot Chocolate in return. It was a very good night. We studied some more, and Grant helped Tori study for the final that they both had the next day. We finally got to bed (kinda) around one. However, neither me or Tori slept. We were both awake almost all night long, just laying there. It was so horrible. Then, at five thirty, we get a knock on my door. Maddison is standing there, and she says, we need to pray. That's it. I was so confused. So the three of us knelt on my floor and Maddison prayed for us. She was teriffied, and neither me or Tori knew what exactly was going on. When Maddison was finished, Tori said she wanted to say a prayer as well. Halfway through, both of us start crying. We still have no idea what is going on, and I thought I was dreaming. Tori is praying, we're crying, and Maddison is scared out of her mind. We found out after the prayer, that Maddison had felt some sort of evil presence, or what she believed to be evil, and was really freaked out. It makes sense, because both her and April have come a long way over the past couple of weeks, and are both getting very involved in their religions. (April gets to take the sacrament next week. We're very excited.) It was cool, but terrifying. By some miracle, I woke up an hour later, took my final, and have remained functioning all day today. My final went well. I didn't get the greatest score, but the rest of the class didn't do so well either, so I'm hoping there will be a curve involved. The wind was so bad today and last night however. Oh my. I thought I was going to die walking across campus. I like had to use a ton of force just to propel my body forward. It felt like thousands of ice daggers were finding their way through the seams of my jeans and implanting themselves into my thighs. My cheek cells were turned to ice cubes, and I thought I would loose my ability to express emotion forever. I thawed however, and now it's just incredibley cold here. But I love it. :] Mostly. We didn't do very much for the rest of the day, because all our classes are over. Me, Tori, and Maddison spent a really long time (4 hours) in my bedroom, just talking and laughing. We have bonded so well. :] (I almost just compared our bond to that of an atom, Biology has forever tainted my normalcy) I'm really going to miss her when she goes back to Washington. We had another church study party as well, and we all studied our different scriptures. :] It's really great. We tried to go to the temple today, but we forgot that it's closed on Monday. We're going to try to go tomorrow. I'm so tired. I have not slept in twenty four hours. I think that that was how Heavenly Father answered my prayers. He kept me awake all day today, even though I had a serious lack of sleep. I'll take any blessings. :] I wrote Cam today as well. Best news of all before I finally go crash, Troy called me tonight. :] He was very cute on the phone, and we are going out on Saturday for sure. :] Very excited. I hope all goes well!! The goose down and a hard twin mattress are requesting my company.
Dec 4/5 2009
So I failed at writing this weekend, I know. I'm sorry. But nothing really all that exciting happened. Friday I went about my last day of classes, nothing great going on there, except for the part where it was the last day of classes. We went to the Marketplace for dinner, and ran into all the people from our ward we played pool with and what not, and Jeff, invited us to play again with them later that night. I was excited, because I really like them, they are super super nice and fun, and a lot of them are really cute. So it's like a win win. We get friends, and they are cute. Haha. So I was just kinda hanging out in the apartment waiting for Jeff to call, and me and Maddison ended up just chilling and watching TV together all night. It was great. :] We bonded. Haha. I love her. I know she drives me insane, and she does these things that just dont make any sense at all, but I still love her. I will miss her when she goes back to Spokane at the end of this week. :/ She gave me a new name, legitney. Haha I'm so glad I have been upgraded from the "Shitney" she used to call me. I like the new one much better. Ha. Jeff never called, but he did stop by the apartment, and apologize for not getting around to playing pool. See? Isn't he just a sweetheart? It was cute. He stayed and talked for a little while, then left. I was so pleased he stopped by. It made my day. Later that night, we all hung out in the front room, and we decorated for Christmas! It's festive in the apartment now. I'm sad we didn't get the lights up yet, hopefully they will be up soon. But we have garland around the TV, and a cute little red Christmas tree. It's adorable. We had a bunch of cardboard left over from one of April's school projects, so I cut it up into squares, and I made ornaments with all of the roommates faces on them. They are adorable. They didn't fit on the tree however, soe we had to line them up around the base. There are pictures I will put up. They are so cute. And I tried to dress each one like their personality. Saturday was good as well. We all slept pretty late, and then we had a cleaning/dance party after lunch. It was just grand. We had the door open and were blasting music. And now our apartment is ten times cleaner, which I always will be a fan of. Then Jennifer and Melissa came and visited me! It was so good to see them! We hung out around the apartment, and then ventured out into the snow. :] It was so pretty!! I loved it. :] We went and watched everyone sledding down Old Main, and Tryn came with us. (Tryn is also known as Tryptophan, the kid from my FHE family who plays football. Intersting fact I learned that night-he is Connor's actual roommate. Yeahh.) Then Chad came over, and all of us went to the USU Basketball game. It was so fun!! There were so many people there and they were so loud!! We lost, which was so lame, cuz it was in the last like minute that we lost it, and it was all because of the referees. Stupid. But it was still a really fun game. After the game we were all starving so we went to Angie's and ate dinner. Then we came back to the apartment and played "Would you Rather" for a couple of hours, and then watched Accepted. It was quite a night. :] Tryn was here until like three thirty. It was kind of obnoxious. And I found out that Connor is an angry drunk. Unfortunate. But yeah it was alright. Another one of those posts with no insight, just the ramblings of events.
Dec 3 2009
Happy Birthday to my father and Caitlyn today. Today was an average day. I'm really tired. And I just want all this hardcore studying stuff to end. I hate Finals. This is the first thing of college that is just like the movies. Stupid stressful finals week. I hate. Today was the last day of two of my classes though. It's really great. One step closer to being home for Christmas! I got a letter today. So that is good. Um I have focus problems today. Bad. It is even interupting this blog post. Quite unfortunate. I went to a ward activity tongiht. It was actually really fun! We went and ate pizza in building F, and then played pool with a bunch of boys from our ward. It was great. :] And now we have friends in the ward! Yay us! We're totally getting rid of the antisocial label that we have been slathered with. Unfortunate. I have so much homework to do. It's stupid. I hate homework. And studying. And everything. Bahh. I just would really like to go on a real live date. Ha. Not in the boy crazy way. I just want to do something productive and fun. :]
Dec 2 2009
So today started out pretty alright. I was able to wake up, drag myself to my early English class, get through that, sit through Biology, and then go to my ASL Lab for the last time. It was a really good class today. We talked all about the Deaf Culture, and Jon told us about how he has a Cochlear Implant, and how it didn't really help him succeed at all. Which is true, people think they make you magically hear just like normal, but that is surely not the case. After that we went to the Marketplace, had a great time, came home, went to Psychology, the boring perks of class filled days. Tonight however was an epic night for USU basketball. And I was so excited to get to go. We headed over to the Spectrum at about four twenty, and the line was so disgustingly long. By the time the doors opened, it snaked all they way through the Hyper field. (I took pictures, I will show you) But it was freezing. And I was not prepared. I stood in line for two and a half hours. Couldn't feel my feet, or my hands. Everyone around us was freezing to death basically. However, when they opened the doors, some idiot created their own line. They ignored the fact that hundreds of kids were standing in the cold, and had been for hours on end, and created their own line to get into the game. The officials ignored this fact, and therefore had two lines slowly filtering themselves into the Spectrum. One line of honest people who had been there all day and stayed in line, and the other, the scum of the earth that cut in front of everyone in their own selfishly created line. Right when we got to the doors, they were shut in our face, and we were told the place was full. I was mad. I was mad that I couldn't feel any part of my body, and that there were people who had been standing in the cold for all of ten minutes snug inside watching the game. It was so ridiculous. I will be writing a letter to the stupid school. And I know for a fact I will not be the only one. Because there were about three hundred kids left outside the Spectrum doors, for honestly standing in line. My feet are still swollen and feel weird from the cold. There had better not be any permanent damage. I'm stressed about the amount of work I have to get done in the next few days. I'm beginning to worry. But I have faith that I will get it all completed. And do well on my Finals. I pray. Pray for me. :/ Let's see...talked to Connor today. He called me pretty. :] Our apartment is a disaster zone and it's starting to gross me out. Rob broke up with Maddison, so that should get pretty interesting over the next couple of days. No letter. I'm exhausted. Tori has layed herself out across my front room table and my couch and fallen asleep. I can't decide if I'm going to leave her here or not, or make her go get in her car and drive home. Eh. Goodnight.
Dec 1
Got to start a new month today. That is a grand occassion. So today was basically the most nonproductive day ever. It all started out well, but went downhill as the day progressed. I realized a few things today however. I noticed, that as I walk across campus, no matter what time of the day it is, no matter what day it is, season, weather conditions, there are always people working on the landscape. I wonder, why that is. I mean, it's pretty cold here. And everyone knows we're going to get a ton of snow, so why spend countless hours slaving away over the landscape that will just become a frozen wasteland in a month's time. Waste of time. Tonight we had some seriously fun times as roommates and Tori. Ha. We got no homework done however, but oh we laughed really hard. First we had a giant dance party, and got the people from the second floor to come up and see what was going on. Then me and Tori stat in my room and no joke just stared out my window waiting for innocent passerbys to scream at. Oh it was so funny. We were dying we were laughing so hard. I don't know what happened to everyone tonight, but we were all on something. Then Tori picked up this giant carboard remote we have in our front room (let me repeat that, the giant....cardboard...remote...we had in our front roomm......??) and we both connected on the same brain wave, and I became her TV. It then turned into this giant game, and everyone was involved, and we acted out all sorts of TV shows, and all of us were laughing so hard we were crying and laying on the floor. It was a great time. I'm going to miss little Tesha when she moves away. I cannot believe it is already the end of my first semester at college. I still feel like a little girl. It's the weirdest. But it really is great. Sometimes I look back for a second on life in high school, jr. high, or elementary, and I can see how old I really am. Other times when I look back I can tell I still am the same girl, with the same quirks, and the same goals. I'm glad that I could remain an individual through the craziness we grow up in now a days. I feel bad for those of them that I once knew, who faded away into the fads and fashions of the world, and caved under the pressures of their peers. I want to show them that the real them is still there somewhere, but I don't think they would be willing to uncover it. They like their new covering of a life better, even if it is just temporary. I can only continue to hope that they will realize it before it is too late, and come back to what they used to know. But everyone has hopes. No letter. Talked to Connor again. Losing interest in Nick. I feel these are just staples of the day that need to be mentioned. They are like the Nutrition Facts on the cereal boxes. Demanded by law, passed over by all.
