Jan 26 2010

I parked on the second floor, by elevator A. Don't let me forget. I always forget when I park by elevator A.
You know when you think you are going to have a good week, and everything is going better than you thought, things are looking up, all that jazz? I was experiencing these feelings. Until Tuesday. (Which is today.) Idk what it was about today, but it just really was not that great.
Straight school for a really long time. Lots of homework. Stress about this paper that neither me or Tori have any clue how to write. Exhaustion. That has become my word of the day. Physically, mentally, everythingally. I hate that a long day, where you are strung out, loaded down, and stressed makes everything else you had lined up, go wrong. I now have reservations. I now have fears. I'm now paranoid. I'm freaking out about little things. It's so frustrating.
Days like today make me want to quit.
I'm determined to make tomorrow better, and make everything go swell. I have to make it to the weekend, happy, and in one piece. That is my main focus as of now.
My list for the week is slowly shrinking. Hopefully, it won't grow in the next few days. I just need to breathe.
We're doing great at our workout video. Ha. It's not kicking our butts quite like it was at first, and I can almost do every single lunge. We're going to perfect if before we move on to the next level. Which will hopefully be by the end of this week.
I'm excited for this weekend. It should be good just to be able to hang out, and not have to worry about doing anything. I have planned to get everything done by Friday. Me and Tori just need some hang out time.
Boys included.
I'm sure you have all noticed, but I'm into this whole pushing enter after certain lines in the blog. I have no idea where it came from, and why I'm doing it. But oh well, it's working.
I got to talk to Parker today. She text me to see what was up. I feel bad, she's dying at home. I wish we could switch lives every once in a while, so we could both just get the best of both worlds. She is so great. She always knows what to say when I'm freaking out, and bring me back to earth. I repeat her words to myself when I overthink and overanalyze. :]
Exhaustion needs to be put to rest.